Shots

I started giving myself shots last Wednesday, and I have to say it's not that bad! No pain at all...just bloating and some emotions. When I got ready to give myself my first shot, I was actually going to let Luis give it to me. I freaked out when I realized there were more vials than necessary. I called my nurse on her cell. She didn't pick up, so I called the pharmacy and talked to the pharmacist. The other vials are for later...my "trigger shot"--close to insemination. So I continued nervously with my Follistim pen.

Follistim is a natural FSH (follicle stimulation hormone). It's kinda cool. It looks like a pen. You take off the cap, load the cartridge with meds, then attach a new needle to the end every time. I wind the other end to my dosage, poke my saddle bags, then push the end as if I'm clicking a real pen and I'm injected. I'm impressed with this at-home pen thing. It's really easy.

Anyway, Luis was all trained and ready to give me the shot, then at the last minute I decided to give it to myself. I did it! I switch sides every night until at least Thursday. I have an appointment then for an ultrasound to see if my follicles are reacting to the medicine. Thursday can't get here fast enough. That's when they should decide on which day we'll inseminate. I hope it works!!!!

Insemination Time!

After this weekend of the 4th, I'll start giving myself those nightly shots to prepare for insemination!!! Eeee! We're getting serious now. Assuming I ovulate and everything goes as planned, we'll get inseminated the week of 7/19. Please say prayers for us. The chances are 10-20%, so it might take a couple tries, but we're very excited to try this new approach--called an IUI. We're hopeful.

Waiting Game

I just ate 2 pieces of chocolate. One for each shot in the butt. Didn't ovulate again this month, so I was given shots of progesterone to get it going. I'll be on the pill for 1-2 months again, then will give myself nightly shots to get ready for an IUI.

I've had a hard couple of days. It's not always easy to stay positive, but the good days outweigh the bad and tomorrow is another day.

The bright side is that while on the pill for 2 months, the pressure is off. There's nothing we can do, so might as well drink beer, work out, and practice. Babies will be here before we know it. I just need to keep my emotions in check and my eye on the prize (?). Yeah that was weak.

The Dr. hurt me

As anticipated, the dr. hurt me today. I had my biopsy. It only took a few minutes, but it felt like an hour. Luis went with me this time. I held his thumb with a mighty grip as the dr. coached a "student" (?) dr. through it all. I was so happy to have Luis there!! The great thing about pain, is my brain forgets. That part is easy. 4 Advil later and I'm good, but the problem is the emotion it evokes. I'm getting tired of taking all these pills and getting poked. I told Luis, "I hope it's worth it." He acted hopeful for me and assured me it is.

Timed Endo Biopsy

So I've got another one of these timed endo biopsies planned for next Tuesday. What they call uncomfortable, I call pain. They take tissue from my uterus, analyze it, then compare the age of that tissue with the time that I start (HOPEFULLY I WON'T START!) to see if I'm ovulating. If I were up for a pitty party, I'd say something like, "What happened to good old fashioned sex? The oops factor? The surprise we're pregnant and we weren't even trying?" Not for us, unfortunately. This, however, is not my pitty party. This is my blog. Blog, blog, babies, babies. There. Done. Actually not even close. Just mentioning pitty party sends me into one. I'm losing hope at this point. It might be too early for one, but I'm sure a valuable defense mechanism none the less. It's probably time after 2+ years to get comfortable with the idea that we may never have children of our own. Perhaps God has a child out there already for us to adopt some day. I'm barely even tearing up as I write this...unusual for me when it comes to this topic. I need to accept this, and I guess today I am...accepting it.

Waiting

Okay, so maybe I didn't ovulate last month? Either way the doc gave me some pills to take to encourage it to happen this month. Monday I have a timed endo biopsy scheduled. Yay. Yes, that's sarcasm. Please keep me in your prayers. Having a down day.

Ovulation

I ovulated this month!!!!! Yahoo!!!!! I wasn't sure if this would happen. A friend of mine didn't ovulate for 4 months after getting off Lupron. Whew. This could be our month! ;o)