Insemination Time!

After this weekend of the 4th, I'll start giving myself those nightly shots to prepare for insemination!!! Eeee! We're getting serious now. Assuming I ovulate and everything goes as planned, we'll get inseminated the week of 7/19. Please say prayers for us. The chances are 10-20%, so it might take a couple tries, but we're very excited to try this new approach--called an IUI. We're hopeful.

Waiting Game

I just ate 2 pieces of chocolate. One for each shot in the butt. Didn't ovulate again this month, so I was given shots of progesterone to get it going. I'll be on the pill for 1-2 months again, then will give myself nightly shots to get ready for an IUI.

I've had a hard couple of days. It's not always easy to stay positive, but the good days outweigh the bad and tomorrow is another day.

The bright side is that while on the pill for 2 months, the pressure is off. There's nothing we can do, so might as well drink beer, work out, and practice. Babies will be here before we know it. I just need to keep my emotions in check and my eye on the prize (?). Yeah that was weak.

The Dr. hurt me

As anticipated, the dr. hurt me today. I had my biopsy. It only took a few minutes, but it felt like an hour. Luis went with me this time. I held his thumb with a mighty grip as the dr. coached a "student" (?) dr. through it all. I was so happy to have Luis there!! The great thing about pain, is my brain forgets. That part is easy. 4 Advil later and I'm good, but the problem is the emotion it evokes. I'm getting tired of taking all these pills and getting poked. I told Luis, "I hope it's worth it." He acted hopeful for me and assured me it is.

Timed Endo Biopsy

So I've got another one of these timed endo biopsies planned for next Tuesday. What they call uncomfortable, I call pain. They take tissue from my uterus, analyze it, then compare the age of that tissue with the time that I start (HOPEFULLY I WON'T START!) to see if I'm ovulating. If I were up for a pitty party, I'd say something like, "What happened to good old fashioned sex? The oops factor? The surprise we're pregnant and we weren't even trying?" Not for us, unfortunately. This, however, is not my pitty party. This is my blog. Blog, blog, babies, babies. There. Done. Actually not even close. Just mentioning pitty party sends me into one. I'm losing hope at this point. It might be too early for one, but I'm sure a valuable defense mechanism none the less. It's probably time after 2+ years to get comfortable with the idea that we may never have children of our own. Perhaps God has a child out there already for us to adopt some day. I'm barely even tearing up as I write this...unusual for me when it comes to this topic. I need to accept this, and I guess today I am...accepting it.

Waiting

Okay, so maybe I didn't ovulate last month? Either way the doc gave me some pills to take to encourage it to happen this month. Monday I have a timed endo biopsy scheduled. Yay. Yes, that's sarcasm. Please keep me in your prayers. Having a down day.

Ovulation

I ovulated this month!!!!! Yahoo!!!!! I wasn't sure if this would happen. A friend of mine didn't ovulate for 4 months after getting off Lupron. Whew. This could be our month! ;o)

The Year of Threes

My birthday is coming up March 9th. I've been saying this is our year of threes. I'll be 33; Pino & I will be married 3 years; Petey will be 3 years old; and hopefully our family will grow into a family of 3!!!! Assuming everything goes right, we should ovulate the week of my birthday. Unfortunately Pino is traveling that week, so we'll just have to bookend that trip with some nookie. No complaints here except for the fact that I asked that he not travel that week...and...well...let's just say there's nothing we can do about that now.

So if you would please say a prayer for us that our year goes as God plans and that we are ready for all that He has to give us!!!!