Byebye Baby

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Here we go!

So much has happened since my last post. We've had at least 3 appointments and 3 ultrasounds. We watched as our 9 follicles grew to show there were actually 12 to grow even more to show we have 15 follicles for egg retrieval tomorrow!!!!!!!

To stimulate the follicles, I gave myself morning and evening shots followed by no more morning shots, but 2 at night. Last night Luis...yes, Luis...gave me my trigger shot of HCG. Eeeee! Here we go!

We go to Oklahoma City (OKC) tomorrow morning for egg retrieval. I'll be in one room and Luis will be in another making his "deposit". I can't wait to see how many eggs they actually retrieve. We will find out before we leave OKC tomorrow. They'll put it all together and call us Thursday to let us know how many were fertilized.

Then we wait. We go back next Monday the 12th for transfer. They'll transfer no more than 2 assuming we have 2 to transfer. If there are any other embryos at that time, then they'll freeze them for later. I'll try to keep you posted on this process.

I must say my husband has been amazing through all of this. He is my moral support and he's done a great job of it. I love you, honey!

Suppression Scan

Last Thursday I went in for the suppression scan/ultrasound. The girls were suppressed and we have 9 potential follicles!!!!! That's 9 potential eggs and 9 potential embryos!!!!! I'm expecting about 1/3 of them to actually make it to fertilized eggs...embryos...by the end of all this. That's not negative thinking...that's just how it works. Please say prayers. We want healthy embryos and then healthy babies! They'll transfer to me a maximum of 2.

Mom went with me to last Thursday's appointment. Check that. Mom went with me to half the appointment. She missed the scan, but was there for when I needed her--injection school. I'm going to be a chemist for at least the next week. I'm mixing sodium chloride gently with powdered meds and injecting them into my saddle bags daily. That's in the evening. In the mornings, I'm injecting an already mixed medication, Follistim, with which I am familiar (see previous blog). So that's 2 shots (a.m. & p.m.) until Thursday.

This coming Thursday is another ultra sound and possible dosage change...medication change. I'll have another ultrasound Saturday, then another one Monday...THEN egg retrieval the following Wednesday!!! EEeeeeee!!!!!! Now I say "I" not to exclude Pino, but because he is just moral support at this time. He's got it easy, b/c his "boys" are healthy and great!--which is a blessing...thank you, God!

Gave myself my first 7 a.m. shot this morning. It went great! No big deal...except the dosage of Follistim I'm taking this time compared to when we had our IUI it's tripled! Can't wait to feel the side effects of this. I'll keep you posted :o)

Love to everyone. We're super duper excited! C'mon October 7th, then October 12th (transfer to mommy)!!!!!!

Injection School

Thursday I go to Dr B's for my suppression scan. I'll get an ultrasound to see where my follicles are in comparison to where the doctor wants them to be--suppressed. My mother is going with me for the first time to an appointment, because Luis will be out of town and after the scan we're participating in injection school! Luis will give me the nightly injections (beginning September 27th) that I can't reach ;o). I think if another set of ears are present with me in injection school, then I won't miss as much as I know I would on my own. These appointments tend to be overwhelming. I leave wishing I'd asked more questions and taken more notes...thus Mom is going with me. Also she'll be able to teach Luis how he is to give me the shots. He does not want to do it, but I say tough titty! Try being the one getting the shots. Men.

I'm not completely informed about what the injections will be, but it is all in preparation for in vitro egg retrieval October 7th in Oklahoma City. Ideally my ovaries will produce multiple eggs to increase our chances of getting pregnant this time, and will hopefully have some left over to freeze to try again later (ideally 9 months plus later!!!!!!).

p.s. If anyone would like to donate to the Luis & Missy + fund, please contact me and I can give you my bank account number at BOK! Bahahahahahahahaha! That is funny :o) But seriously call me ;o)

Brian Cremin

One of my very best friends, Brian Cremin, passed away early yesterday morning. His girlfriend, Liz, went to wake him up and he just wouldn't wake up. She is pregnant with their first child, Tristyn Marie O'Day Cremin, expected to arrive December 21st. Brian was a very big personality with a flare of his own--one of the funniest people I've ever met! He loved words, music, and his family. He contributed to Tulsa's local music scene for many years with his talent for rap and hip hop. I miss him very much. Love you, B!

We Are Big Time Now

Looks like we are heading for in vitro. We are big time now!

We visited with Dr. B Monday about in vitro in OCTOBER!!!! We're super psyched. Why? Well it is not because it's going to cost us around $12,000 or that I will be giving myself shots again or that we have to sit on the bench for 2 month in preparation for the in vitro process. We are excited, because this IS going to work!! Keeping my eye on the prize...visualizing the goal line...expecting the best (I hear that helps in the process :o)).

Our chances greatly increase from about 7% on my own to 20% with IUI to 50+% with IVF!!!!!! We have been researching baby names...checking out nursery colors...saving as much $$$ as we possibly can, because babies are in our future. Finally I feel like we are on the right path...

The down side is that we are getting close to the end of our options. It definitely has not been an easy road to say the least. We experienced 2 miscarriages, years of disappointment, dozens of negative HPTs, buckets of tears, and $$$$ on surgery, procedure, perscriptions, hormones, and doctor visits for it all come down to the IVF process (with a few options thereafter including donor eggs; a sarogate; adoption). I am almost eager just to know one way or another...do we adopt or keep trying?

One of my best, and wise I might add, girlfriends once said God does not put this kind of desire in your heart to go unfulfilled. I have faith that we will have children. I do not always have patience, as you read in my previous blog, but I definitely have faith that our efforts and His will soon will give us the family we so badly want!

Peed on a stick. Negative again.

This is getting old. Why do we keep trying? I'm so sick of this!!!! How much rejection can one person handle?